This seems to be a reoccurring question for me.
Where am I in this stage of my evolution?
What is important to me right at this very moment in time?
What do I need to change up?
How can I maneuver in this world when all things seem to be against me?
How do I bust out of that box and do something a little bit different?
I have done things in the past, and it worked for me then. Now, I have some things that keep me more "on ground" so to speak, but even considering that, I know myself. I will find a crazy, eclectic way to get out, like freakin' Houdini, to prove everyone wrong, that you can never be "caged" and that there IS a way, NO MATTER WHAT, to get out of the things that seem to keep us bound so tightly!
I feel as if I have been on a tour of the world lately. Viewing the world, as it is, in all aspects. I do have to say that I have not gotten current on all of the events that are happening in the world. My time is so limited outside of work, and the last thing I want to do is listen to the news, as depressing as it gets. I still want to be abreast of what is happening globally. Balancing all aspects of what I think is healthy, and conducive seems like a full time job, outside of my job, that takes so much of my time, it perplexes me! It really does.
I look at the amount of time spent at my job, pan back on what it is that I am here for, and how I want to maneuver in this world and I think............ hmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!! What is it really, that I want to change up, or how, on god's earth am I going to make a difference where I am at, with the people.... and too, with the customers that respond to me so well?
Is there a place for me? Is there room for a consciousness there that maybe I am overseeing?
I mean the gems that happen with some of my clientele are just mind blowing. But that is only a percentage.
I can do that anywhere!!
There are people who want to know something different than the status quo.
THAT IS WHERE MY INTEREST/ HEART LIES!
Please, don't tell me about the video you watched, or the hamburger you ate, and how you got so drunk last night that you had no idea how you made it through your day! I will yawn alllllllllllllll day!
Where, dear God, are the people who get away from the norm?????
Who? Please tell me WHO................. is interested in living and viewing life in a different way, outside of what seems to be good, or prosperous, or another notch on their belt, or the ones who think they have made it when they have received yet another award, or plaque, or have climbed the ladder of so called "success".
GOD DAMN..........WHAT DOES SUCCESS MEAN TO YOU? REALLY? PLEASE TELL ME? LET ME UNDERSTAND, OUTSIDE OF MY IDEA.
If it is THAT GREAT, than I will certainly show up and participate in every and all events, and hopefully celebrate in a whole way that will shake me to my core!!!!
What will shake me to my core?
I ask myself that every moment of my days. I kid you not.
If I feel off the mark, I ask myself what it is that I need to do to get me back in the reality of being "on the mark".
I know when I need to get quiet. To hear God's whisper, to tell me what, when, how, and not necessarily why, but maybe a gentle reminder that guides me in a direction that answers the whys for me.
This way is specific. Detailed. Sexy. On the money. And every bit of interesting to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I could care less about the everyday norm.I could care less what you do........ what label clothing you have......how successful your friends are...........how they have made a "mark" in society........ it's good in that they have achieved their own personal goals...........but in essence........ eh..........ya know?
I don't want to be successful in any certain area.
I want to LOVE!
I want to practice compassion.
I want to embrace all moments, hard, sad, grief, glory, you name it........ I want to be what I think is admirable........something worth teaching people to be......outside of ideas............ to actually live a life that is of service.............. in a whole and pure way.
Hay, but that is just me, ya know?
I'm not trying to mold anyone to be a certain way, or live a certain way.
I'm just me!
People seem to gravitate toward me.
I think it has nothing to do with anything but the energy of love that I am in. The love that I feel. The love that is dancing inside of me.
No one knows what to do with it!
Sometimes, actually........... I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH IT!!!!!!
How funny is that???
This is why I require alone time!
To keep my idea of what I think is important, in perspective.
I don't want anything. I really don't.
My life boils down to a simple formula that encomasses Truth, and love, and service, and a message.
I don't push anything. I just send out my little vibe. If it is cool with you, then great. Hop on! If not, that is so ok too. I am not a recruiter, or anyone that thinks my way is the way. I just have had the most phenomenal experiences and it seems to be a kind of "highway robbery" if I didn't share what it has been like along the way, and how it has transformed my entire life.
I am crazy passionate about my trek here. It is extremely hot! So on the money! So........... well.............to me............
purposeful!
That is all that matters, to me, in the bigger scheme of things.............
to me
at least!
I love you all so, so much. Thank you for always being who you are, and for listening to my messages that are so important to me.
~
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Saturday, January 15, 2011
RAINDROPS KEEP FALLIN' ON MY HEAD
A song my Dad used to sing to me time and time again as a child.
It is raining this morning.
I woke up early, looked out of my bedroom doors and just stared at the lake, the mist hovering over it, and the mystical energy that I felt inside, knowing deeply, I am on to something, and it is continuing to grow at such a pace, that if I don't make the time necessary, it will pass me by with the blink of an eye.
I sat up and meditated....... it just blew me right out of the water.
How to simplify my life so that THAT IS where my energy goes to. Really...it is at the point where risk taking is at it's best, and whether or not ANYONE ELSE is doing it or not, I am in flight, and nothing really will stop me.
I am reveling in a treasure that I have found or, has found me.
I went for a walk in the rain this morning and just feeling the drops on my face, on my hair, the mist brushing up against my face........ told me a thousand stories. I didn't want to come home, nor get ready for work, or even anticipate seeing one single person.
The feeling that came over me was so deep, so guttural, so telling, yet no words formed.
I stopped by my mailbox. It seems as if I haven't even gotten my mail lately. The weather has been cold, rainy, and so the dogs haven't even gotten their regular walks, thus, no walks to the mailbox.
The only reason I love going actually is because I know I will eventually sift through and find a card from my Uncle Dick which delights me like nothing other.
I always feel like I want to write down his words. So tender, so real, so simple and right where I am at in this moment in time, in my precious life. He mirrors the most beautiful love. His paintings, which are the cards that he sends me. Pencil drawings of lighthouses, which are my favorite, and beautiful nature, my god, just everything.......and always in his cards he writes how he sees me doing certain things in the picture, like sitting in the barn or in the hay, watching this or that, or like today, he said, "Did you find yourself in the tree? I know you are peeking out."
There is a innocence that beckons me, and this is the kind of thing that enraptures me, and keeps me in the very place that feels as if I am making love in the most tender ways. Making love with an experience that is growing and growing and I just cannot seem to keep the smile off of my face. (nor do I want to).
My entire life is sitting on the edge of a cliff. I'm standing with my arms wide open, disappearing into a silence that tells me everything I need to know.
One thing I know is that I will never have the answers to anything. The beauty of that is, when I am ultimately quiet, and communing with what I know to be the Source, the deep well, the mystery inside......... there is a whispering that happens. In that whispering, I listen intently, and there it all is. Every answer I need. Every clue, to when to do, not to do, how to do, if I should, if I shouldn't, what direction next..........all of it! If the whispering is too low, and I cannot seem to hear it, it only indicates that I need to get even more quiet, more, more and more.........until I hear it so clear that there is no question as to what the information is.
That may mean a number of things in my life, from no noise, to going for quiet walks, to sitting still for minutes, hours upon hours. It may just mean sitting and watching the birds, or listening to the symphony, or not.............
It's a standing still amongst the "wars". Wars in our heads, war of the world, wars right outside our doors.
There is a magic to be had in and amongst all of this, and it feels so good to know that magic is right at my finger tips, now and always.
Simplicity equals magic.
I am very grateful for all of the magic in my world and for the blessed opportunity I have in this life to be able to share that ray of light, wherever I am, whoever I am with.
I am so grateful.
The rain continues to tell me stories as I sit here.
I'm going to go listen..............
it's good stuff.
I will keep you posted.
The whispering has begun.
All of my love,
as always,
Gabriela
It is raining this morning.
I woke up early, looked out of my bedroom doors and just stared at the lake, the mist hovering over it, and the mystical energy that I felt inside, knowing deeply, I am on to something, and it is continuing to grow at such a pace, that if I don't make the time necessary, it will pass me by with the blink of an eye.
I sat up and meditated....... it just blew me right out of the water.
How to simplify my life so that THAT IS where my energy goes to. Really...it is at the point where risk taking is at it's best, and whether or not ANYONE ELSE is doing it or not, I am in flight, and nothing really will stop me.
I am reveling in a treasure that I have found or, has found me.
I went for a walk in the rain this morning and just feeling the drops on my face, on my hair, the mist brushing up against my face........ told me a thousand stories. I didn't want to come home, nor get ready for work, or even anticipate seeing one single person.
The feeling that came over me was so deep, so guttural, so telling, yet no words formed.
I stopped by my mailbox. It seems as if I haven't even gotten my mail lately. The weather has been cold, rainy, and so the dogs haven't even gotten their regular walks, thus, no walks to the mailbox.
The only reason I love going actually is because I know I will eventually sift through and find a card from my Uncle Dick which delights me like nothing other.
I always feel like I want to write down his words. So tender, so real, so simple and right where I am at in this moment in time, in my precious life. He mirrors the most beautiful love. His paintings, which are the cards that he sends me. Pencil drawings of lighthouses, which are my favorite, and beautiful nature, my god, just everything.......and always in his cards he writes how he sees me doing certain things in the picture, like sitting in the barn or in the hay, watching this or that, or like today, he said, "Did you find yourself in the tree? I know you are peeking out."
There is a innocence that beckons me, and this is the kind of thing that enraptures me, and keeps me in the very place that feels as if I am making love in the most tender ways. Making love with an experience that is growing and growing and I just cannot seem to keep the smile off of my face. (nor do I want to).
My entire life is sitting on the edge of a cliff. I'm standing with my arms wide open, disappearing into a silence that tells me everything I need to know.
One thing I know is that I will never have the answers to anything. The beauty of that is, when I am ultimately quiet, and communing with what I know to be the Source, the deep well, the mystery inside......... there is a whispering that happens. In that whispering, I listen intently, and there it all is. Every answer I need. Every clue, to when to do, not to do, how to do, if I should, if I shouldn't, what direction next..........all of it! If the whispering is too low, and I cannot seem to hear it, it only indicates that I need to get even more quiet, more, more and more.........until I hear it so clear that there is no question as to what the information is.
That may mean a number of things in my life, from no noise, to going for quiet walks, to sitting still for minutes, hours upon hours. It may just mean sitting and watching the birds, or listening to the symphony, or not.............
It's a standing still amongst the "wars". Wars in our heads, war of the world, wars right outside our doors.
There is a magic to be had in and amongst all of this, and it feels so good to know that magic is right at my finger tips, now and always.
Simplicity equals magic.
I am very grateful for all of the magic in my world and for the blessed opportunity I have in this life to be able to share that ray of light, wherever I am, whoever I am with.
I am so grateful.
The rain continues to tell me stories as I sit here.
I'm going to go listen..............
it's good stuff.
I will keep you posted.
The whispering has begun.
All of my love,
as always,
Gabriela
Sunday, January 9, 2011
TIMES ARE CHANGIN
It has been so, so long since I have written. My life has gotten so compartmentalized, and time seems to be next to nill.
Change is happening in the most beautiful ways, and there has been nothing more glorious than remembering how staying in this precise moment gives a birth and a death to so much in my life.
It gives me great relief to know that I don't have to entertain my thoughts past this moment. Call me crazy, but it works.
I'm not saying that planning isn't a part of my life, but things are ever changing and it almost becomes this sort of laugh off in a way. And the funny part is, it's ME against ME. How funny it all is.
I have met someone who has brought such joy into my life!
It is so many things........ to use regular words almost dilutes the beauty, the brilliance, the charm, the purity and the sacredness of it all.
When I have ample time to actually sit...... to empty myself onto this white page, that somehow is calling my name more than ever now..........I will begin my story...........
If I could write in beautiful calligraphy to somehow exemplify my beating heart and all of it's emotions, I would! I would find the exact pen and the perfect paper, and with the softness of my hand, slowly writing down the most amazing journey that has begun, all within this last year.
I may not have the paper, I may not have the pen, but the calligraphy will be spelled out in a perfume of letters that will satiate me, at least for now, on here.
I found it somewhat difficult to start writing when I haven't written in so long, so bare with me. I do miss all of you, and my connection to you via this blog.
It has been the most amazing vehicle for me and has given me so much to be grateful for, more so than I ever realized. I have many plans ahead........... this blog has ignited so much inside.
I will keep you posted and in the loop.
and..........
Uncle Dick............ you are here with me, and I will catch you up.
Your letters me the world to me and are more and more sacred to me everyday.
I love all of you so much!
With great gratitude,
Gabriela
Change is happening in the most beautiful ways, and there has been nothing more glorious than remembering how staying in this precise moment gives a birth and a death to so much in my life.
It gives me great relief to know that I don't have to entertain my thoughts past this moment. Call me crazy, but it works.
I'm not saying that planning isn't a part of my life, but things are ever changing and it almost becomes this sort of laugh off in a way. And the funny part is, it's ME against ME. How funny it all is.
I have met someone who has brought such joy into my life!
It is so many things........ to use regular words almost dilutes the beauty, the brilliance, the charm, the purity and the sacredness of it all.
When I have ample time to actually sit...... to empty myself onto this white page, that somehow is calling my name more than ever now..........I will begin my story...........
If I could write in beautiful calligraphy to somehow exemplify my beating heart and all of it's emotions, I would! I would find the exact pen and the perfect paper, and with the softness of my hand, slowly writing down the most amazing journey that has begun, all within this last year.
I may not have the paper, I may not have the pen, but the calligraphy will be spelled out in a perfume of letters that will satiate me, at least for now, on here.
I found it somewhat difficult to start writing when I haven't written in so long, so bare with me. I do miss all of you, and my connection to you via this blog.
It has been the most amazing vehicle for me and has given me so much to be grateful for, more so than I ever realized. I have many plans ahead........... this blog has ignited so much inside.
I will keep you posted and in the loop.
and..........
Uncle Dick............ you are here with me, and I will catch you up.
Your letters me the world to me and are more and more sacred to me everyday.
I love all of you so much!
With great gratitude,
Gabriela
Monday, December 20, 2010
DEVOTIONAL PRACTICE
I don't know where this blog will take me tonight. I knew that I needed to sit and write, and as always, there are a million things to write about, so little time, and every once in awhile I glance over at the clock and say, "Shit..... it's late, I can't write tonight.......".
There are always so many things to do, to accomplish, dogs to attend to and such.....
I'm not obsessed with having things done in a timely manner, yet, I do love to be productive, and don't have an investment in checking things off on my to do list, at least I hope not after years and years of condensing my should and shouldn'ts into a big trash can that I set on fire, to set ablaze ideas that just don't need to be with me any longer.
I am in a major state of awe tonight for so many reasons.
I found a gift in my box at work tonight. It was a CD from a friend. A Christmas gift. So surprising and lovely.
I took it home with me tonight and have been listening to it since I have gotten home.
I love the fact that listening to this music brings me closer to my friend, but not only that, connects me to her soul, the one that I knew was ablaze when we met. The CD also has reminded me of who I am, what I love, and the tenderness of Truth. How incredibly pure it all is and how it is THE MOST IMPORTANT THING in my life. It IS MY LIFE!
It is very rare that I go out of my way to spend time with people. I get enough of people at work , which is such a blessing for me in so many gorgeous ways, but at the end of the night, I cradle the moments that I will be home, with my animals, in silence........no noise, no hustle...........just simple......simple.......simple!
I have an extremely private life, and when I do venture out to spend time with people, it is going to be because you equal special in my life.
That may sound fa fi fa, as my sister and I call it. I am not pompous in any way shape or form, just very specific with my time, who, what, and where's.........
I don't have a lot of time and so I want my spare time to be laden with goods.......pure goods that will sustain my energy and elevate people.
I know what that equates for me. It's a pretty simple formula, yet it is potent beyond belief.
I have been experiencing so many things that almost have no words to describe the enormity of it all.
It is a huge disappointment for the writer in me who NEEDS to find the right words to express this crazy, crazy love that I am experiencing, but not for the soul who just GETS IT and is fine with WHAT IS!
I have come to realize, more and more, how my devotional practice dictates my moments, my hours, my days, my every, every, every thing.
It affects my decisions, my relationships, my "plans" for where I might be headed.......I mean really, there are a ton of things.
There are things that come at us from all directions, pulling us to go one way or the other.
I find that when I am connected to who I am inside, and am OK with letting ideas go, not glomming onto them, that I soar to heights that baffle the sh...........outa me!
Right now, I cannot seem to articulate what it truly is that I am experiencing, and it IS a lot.
Remnants of my past make me learn and grow and keep me current on so many things.
Then you meet the person that you have missing all of this time, and you wonder how God can be so darn gracious!
How will it all be orchestrated?
Again, I close my eyes........
It is none of my business!
I don't want to know, to be honest.
The glory of my days are reveling in the moment and letting life unfold in all of it's glory.
I completely trust this process. So much so that I have to take several "God" breaks to check in with myself to see if I have actually gone to heaven, or if it is actually "heaven" that I am living in............modern day........ serious........... seizing my moments so much so that God is using me in the biggest of ways, to live out this life in the most conducive and genuine ways.
He is bringing me the people, revealing the places, and at the same time, tickling me to death, reminding me of how fleeting this all is!
How it will all be gone in a flash.
I have a responsibility to myself.
That responsibility is to stay true to myself.
In staying true to myself, I bring about change.
I bring a fierce consciousness to the table that needs to be gulped up.
I need quiet to digest what it is that I need to be doing in order to make that consciousness come to life, and to make it a reality.
I don't sneeze at any of my visions.
They are real, thought out, and precise.
I am a warrior that will fight for what I believe in.
There is so much to be done..........
I rest in the knowing that I am one that will accomplish the things that need to be done in order to promote happiness, growth, change, and transformation.
How that will show up for me is always a surprise, and too, a luxury.
I bow in sheer gratitude for the allowance to live in a life that is so free.
How lucky am I to be able to write this blog, so freely....... to say whatever it is that I want and send it out into the ether's..... my own thoughts........ unedited............with no expectations............just a free love............. sharing it's grandeur............
I'm overwhelmed, to say the least.
Thank you, thank you, thank you, for this life.............for my very existence...........for being born into such a complex world that has challenged me enough to question so many things, to keep me alive, so very much alive........
never stale.....I swear.......
God is so good to me!
I court my God ..............
I forever court my God........
I will forever open his door, send him flowers, write him poetry, swing him around, dancing freely.............
My smile is will always be big.......... greeting him with open arms.......... sharing my tender heart.......
because
I love............ really............... just love..........period!
It is the one thing that I can be sure of.............for myself............
that my love will never run dry............
it is an oasis.........
and so unexplainable
that I must just finish this sentence
and go..........
I never want to water down this love.
~
There are always so many things to do, to accomplish, dogs to attend to and such.....
I'm not obsessed with having things done in a timely manner, yet, I do love to be productive, and don't have an investment in checking things off on my to do list, at least I hope not after years and years of condensing my should and shouldn'ts into a big trash can that I set on fire, to set ablaze ideas that just don't need to be with me any longer.
I am in a major state of awe tonight for so many reasons.
I found a gift in my box at work tonight. It was a CD from a friend. A Christmas gift. So surprising and lovely.
I took it home with me tonight and have been listening to it since I have gotten home.
I love the fact that listening to this music brings me closer to my friend, but not only that, connects me to her soul, the one that I knew was ablaze when we met. The CD also has reminded me of who I am, what I love, and the tenderness of Truth. How incredibly pure it all is and how it is THE MOST IMPORTANT THING in my life. It IS MY LIFE!
It is very rare that I go out of my way to spend time with people. I get enough of people at work , which is such a blessing for me in so many gorgeous ways, but at the end of the night, I cradle the moments that I will be home, with my animals, in silence........no noise, no hustle...........just simple......simple.......simple!
I have an extremely private life, and when I do venture out to spend time with people, it is going to be because you equal special in my life.
That may sound fa fi fa, as my sister and I call it. I am not pompous in any way shape or form, just very specific with my time, who, what, and where's.........
I don't have a lot of time and so I want my spare time to be laden with goods.......pure goods that will sustain my energy and elevate people.
I know what that equates for me. It's a pretty simple formula, yet it is potent beyond belief.
I have been experiencing so many things that almost have no words to describe the enormity of it all.
It is a huge disappointment for the writer in me who NEEDS to find the right words to express this crazy, crazy love that I am experiencing, but not for the soul who just GETS IT and is fine with WHAT IS!
I have come to realize, more and more, how my devotional practice dictates my moments, my hours, my days, my every, every, every thing.
It affects my decisions, my relationships, my "plans" for where I might be headed.......I mean really, there are a ton of things.
There are things that come at us from all directions, pulling us to go one way or the other.
I find that when I am connected to who I am inside, and am OK with letting ideas go, not glomming onto them, that I soar to heights that baffle the sh...........outa me!
Right now, I cannot seem to articulate what it truly is that I am experiencing, and it IS a lot.
Remnants of my past make me learn and grow and keep me current on so many things.
Then you meet the person that you have missing all of this time, and you wonder how God can be so darn gracious!
How will it all be orchestrated?
Again, I close my eyes........
It is none of my business!
I don't want to know, to be honest.
The glory of my days are reveling in the moment and letting life unfold in all of it's glory.
I completely trust this process. So much so that I have to take several "God" breaks to check in with myself to see if I have actually gone to heaven, or if it is actually "heaven" that I am living in............modern day........ serious........... seizing my moments so much so that God is using me in the biggest of ways, to live out this life in the most conducive and genuine ways.
He is bringing me the people, revealing the places, and at the same time, tickling me to death, reminding me of how fleeting this all is!
How it will all be gone in a flash.
I have a responsibility to myself.
That responsibility is to stay true to myself.
In staying true to myself, I bring about change.
I bring a fierce consciousness to the table that needs to be gulped up.
I need quiet to digest what it is that I need to be doing in order to make that consciousness come to life, and to make it a reality.
I don't sneeze at any of my visions.
They are real, thought out, and precise.
I am a warrior that will fight for what I believe in.
There is so much to be done..........
I rest in the knowing that I am one that will accomplish the things that need to be done in order to promote happiness, growth, change, and transformation.
How that will show up for me is always a surprise, and too, a luxury.
I bow in sheer gratitude for the allowance to live in a life that is so free.
How lucky am I to be able to write this blog, so freely....... to say whatever it is that I want and send it out into the ether's..... my own thoughts........ unedited............with no expectations............just a free love............. sharing it's grandeur............
I'm overwhelmed, to say the least.
Thank you, thank you, thank you, for this life.............for my very existence...........for being born into such a complex world that has challenged me enough to question so many things, to keep me alive, so very much alive........
never stale.....I swear.......
God is so good to me!
I court my God ..............
I forever court my God........
I will forever open his door, send him flowers, write him poetry, swing him around, dancing freely.............
My smile is will always be big.......... greeting him with open arms.......... sharing my tender heart.......
because
I love............ really............... just love..........period!
It is the one thing that I can be sure of.............for myself............
that my love will never run dry............
it is an oasis.........
and so unexplainable
that I must just finish this sentence
and go..........
I never want to water down this love.
~
Friday, December 17, 2010
GOING THROUGH THE EMOTIONS.....
BUT....
Being objective!
It is hard these days to find a spot where we can actually sit back in a recliner and touch the remote, to our own lives, to be able to watch from an objective place, and to be able to view things as they are, which to me, is a movie.
It takes a diligence, and a willingness to want to know something beyond what seems to be.
My life is changing at a rapid rate, yet, when I really look at it, it is moving in succession with what has been asked for, by me, and as long as I keep up to snuff, and am honest with what it is that I have asked for, and acknowledge the gifts in what is presented, I will be sailing on a huge boat of happiness.
There are so many details in my life right now, so many significant signs, so many gifts from God that I want to sit for hours upon hours to tell you, in all of it's glory, how it is changing me, and strengthening my core, and opening me up to places that are devoid of ideas. Did I say devoid of ideas??? I think so. Can I say that again........DEVOID OF IDEAS!
Today I found myself saying that, "Even my own reality is blowing me away".
I don't usually say that about my life. I am so used to it being very eclectic in it's way, and somehow find myself giggling at the absurdity of it all, but these days, I'm goin" , "Holy Crap".......WTF.........
Situations and events present themselves and I find myself listening deeply to the intuition that I most love, and trust implicitly.
It's so wild how I have come so acute and privy to the workings of my inner world.
It really isn't anything that complex. It is ever changing and if I don't stay abreast it will take me on a ride to hell, and I will be that typical American that says, "Why me?". I ain't going for that stuff.......I'm sorry!!!!
Take responsibility. I have to take responsibility for my feelings, my emotions, my reactions and know that it has nothing to do with anyone else but myself. If I dare blame anyone else, I am setting myself up for some fierce disappointment.
I had a long day today. I was off, but had to get up for a court appointment, which turned out incredible, in my favor........that is always good..........
and then I came home and started doing all of the things I love to do, and honestly felt like I had a piece of heaven sliced for me and put on a silver platter.
I had a million and one thoughts and I said to myself, "When I write my blog, I will spill the beans". But really it has to come when the time is ripe. There is so much to convey and being rushed or with little time just doesn't make it for a good story, or at least, enough to be present to the point I like to tell a true, good love laden story.
I will have to catch you up little by little.
I feel as if my life has changed 200%. All good, and rewarding to say the least.
I am in love, without a doubt.
How's that for a one liner.
Chew on that, and don't, don't inundate me with the who, what, where, and how's.
You know I will spoon feed you.
If I kept it from you it would be too weird.
God is good to me, and answers all of my prayers.
Good things come to those who deserve it.
I would have never said this about myself, but I will now.
I DESERVE GREAT, GREAT LOVE.
And......I am getting it.
Thank you heavens above!
I love you all and thank you for being patient with me not writing consistently.
I am here.......experiencing life, like everyone......digesting.......and marching forward in very high ways.
Thank you for supporting my blog, and for loving me in all the ways that you do.
Tons of love and warmth,
Gabriela
Being objective!
It is hard these days to find a spot where we can actually sit back in a recliner and touch the remote, to our own lives, to be able to watch from an objective place, and to be able to view things as they are, which to me, is a movie.
It takes a diligence, and a willingness to want to know something beyond what seems to be.
My life is changing at a rapid rate, yet, when I really look at it, it is moving in succession with what has been asked for, by me, and as long as I keep up to snuff, and am honest with what it is that I have asked for, and acknowledge the gifts in what is presented, I will be sailing on a huge boat of happiness.
There are so many details in my life right now, so many significant signs, so many gifts from God that I want to sit for hours upon hours to tell you, in all of it's glory, how it is changing me, and strengthening my core, and opening me up to places that are devoid of ideas. Did I say devoid of ideas??? I think so. Can I say that again........DEVOID OF IDEAS!
Today I found myself saying that, "Even my own reality is blowing me away".
I don't usually say that about my life. I am so used to it being very eclectic in it's way, and somehow find myself giggling at the absurdity of it all, but these days, I'm goin" , "Holy Crap".......WTF.........
Situations and events present themselves and I find myself listening deeply to the intuition that I most love, and trust implicitly.
It's so wild how I have come so acute and privy to the workings of my inner world.
It really isn't anything that complex. It is ever changing and if I don't stay abreast it will take me on a ride to hell, and I will be that typical American that says, "Why me?". I ain't going for that stuff.......I'm sorry!!!!
Take responsibility. I have to take responsibility for my feelings, my emotions, my reactions and know that it has nothing to do with anyone else but myself. If I dare blame anyone else, I am setting myself up for some fierce disappointment.
I had a long day today. I was off, but had to get up for a court appointment, which turned out incredible, in my favor........that is always good..........
and then I came home and started doing all of the things I love to do, and honestly felt like I had a piece of heaven sliced for me and put on a silver platter.
I had a million and one thoughts and I said to myself, "When I write my blog, I will spill the beans". But really it has to come when the time is ripe. There is so much to convey and being rushed or with little time just doesn't make it for a good story, or at least, enough to be present to the point I like to tell a true, good love laden story.
I will have to catch you up little by little.
I feel as if my life has changed 200%. All good, and rewarding to say the least.
I am in love, without a doubt.
How's that for a one liner.
Chew on that, and don't, don't inundate me with the who, what, where, and how's.
You know I will spoon feed you.
If I kept it from you it would be too weird.
God is good to me, and answers all of my prayers.
Good things come to those who deserve it.
I would have never said this about myself, but I will now.
I DESERVE GREAT, GREAT LOVE.
And......I am getting it.
Thank you heavens above!
I love you all and thank you for being patient with me not writing consistently.
I am here.......experiencing life, like everyone......digesting.......and marching forward in very high ways.
Thank you for supporting my blog, and for loving me in all the ways that you do.
Tons of love and warmth,
Gabriela
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