If love is not
allowed
to
flow
it becomes
Fear.
If love is
allowed
to
flow
Fear
Disappears.
~
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
THANK YOU
Say
thank
you
to all
of your
yesterdays.
It brought
you
to
where
you
are
now
and
whether
you
know it
or not
It has
served
your
soul
well!
~
thank
you
to all
of your
yesterdays.
It brought
you
to
where
you
are
now
and
whether
you
know it
or not
It has
served
your
soul
well!
~
NEVER A LOSS, JUST A GAIN!
The more I feel at a loss for something, or someone, the more I realize, I'm gaining........on ALL LEVELS,
understood, and not understood!
The NOT understood part, can really be perplexing. Kind of like if a kid were to walk to get candy at the corner store, all excited and wondering and thinking about what he was going to eat first, even tasting it, in their mind, whole hearted, before they even got it! Their mouth had never been so alive, with such flavors, such sensations, yet, somehow on their journey, they had taken a few back roads.
Why can't I find the "corner store" where I know I will find all of my tasty treasures?"
Finally, they get "there", and there it is......the most delicious candy, every bit of it that they envisioned, and somehow, with a surprised look on their face, they realized that the candy actually tasted much better ON THE WAY to finding it, in their mind, than actually indulging in it.
The more I feel at a loss, the more I know I have gained!
More times, than not, these days, I know I am not missing out on anything, but candy IS candy, and it IS comforting, yet, oh so fleeting!
Waking up with a quietude that you can never replace, and a clarity about your life that would never be the same, by going to the "corner store" every time we wanted something sweet, is completely unexplainable, yet incredibly exquisite!!!!!!
Comfort lies in knowing who you are, outside of all wants and needs!
If you can live with yourself, do for yourself, and really love what you see in the mirror everyday, than you will be able to welcome all the sweets in the world, be able to pick and choose WHEN and IF you want those sweets, with total confidence, that whether you have a "sweet tooth" or not, you can buy, or not buy, and still feel satiated as if you had indulged yourself silly!
One way or the other, you are never at a loss, because the "candy" is just icing on the cake, not the "cake" itself!
I'm gaining so much, that my sweet tooth has taken a back seat!
Hooray for that "diet plan".
Loving all aspects of my life!
It's full, and charged with a solid, singular love, for all things!
~
understood, and not understood!
The NOT understood part, can really be perplexing. Kind of like if a kid were to walk to get candy at the corner store, all excited and wondering and thinking about what he was going to eat first, even tasting it, in their mind, whole hearted, before they even got it! Their mouth had never been so alive, with such flavors, such sensations, yet, somehow on their journey, they had taken a few back roads.
Why can't I find the "corner store" where I know I will find all of my tasty treasures?"
Finally, they get "there", and there it is......the most delicious candy, every bit of it that they envisioned, and somehow, with a surprised look on their face, they realized that the candy actually tasted much better ON THE WAY to finding it, in their mind, than actually indulging in it.
The more I feel at a loss, the more I know I have gained!
More times, than not, these days, I know I am not missing out on anything, but candy IS candy, and it IS comforting, yet, oh so fleeting!
Waking up with a quietude that you can never replace, and a clarity about your life that would never be the same, by going to the "corner store" every time we wanted something sweet, is completely unexplainable, yet incredibly exquisite!!!!!!
Comfort lies in knowing who you are, outside of all wants and needs!
If you can live with yourself, do for yourself, and really love what you see in the mirror everyday, than you will be able to welcome all the sweets in the world, be able to pick and choose WHEN and IF you want those sweets, with total confidence, that whether you have a "sweet tooth" or not, you can buy, or not buy, and still feel satiated as if you had indulged yourself silly!
One way or the other, you are never at a loss, because the "candy" is just icing on the cake, not the "cake" itself!
I'm gaining so much, that my sweet tooth has taken a back seat!
Hooray for that "diet plan".
Loving all aspects of my life!
It's full, and charged with a solid, singular love, for all things!
~
Sunday, July 25, 2010
AS LONG AS I KNOW....
..That I have loved,
fully
and
expressed myself
entirely~
I have
no
expectations
of
receiving
something
in return.
It makes me shiver.
The knowing
that I am able to leave
it
at that!
To love
from such an
amazing
detached
way!
I'm not saying'
I'm there
a hundred
percent
but man
I have to tell you....
being "here"
only
somewhat
ENLIGHTENS ME
and gives me the OOOMMPPPHHHH
to go the whole
entire
mile!
I want to
LOVE!
THAT
IS
ALL!
~
fully
and
expressed myself
entirely~
I have
no
expectations
of
receiving
something
in return.
It makes me shiver.
The knowing
that I am able to leave
it
at that!
To love
from such an
amazing
detached
way!
I'm not saying'
I'm there
a hundred
percent
but man
I have to tell you....
being "here"
only
somewhat
ENLIGHTENS ME
and gives me the OOOMMPPPHHHH
to go the whole
entire
mile!
I want to
LOVE!
THAT
IS
ALL!
~
Saturday, July 24, 2010
END THE THING........
....that you think you cannot hurdle over!
NOTHING.... HAS A GRIP ON YOU, I PROMISE!
It's all just a thought, and you are just a thought away from being back to yourself, at your core, where all things are just the way you want them, just as you see them, feel them and taste them!
The only way these things will persist is if YOU LET THEM!
"Rest is going to come, when you let it".
Mary Chapin Carpenter
NOTHING.... HAS A GRIP ON YOU, I PROMISE!
It's all just a thought, and you are just a thought away from being back to yourself, at your core, where all things are just the way you want them, just as you see them, feel them and taste them!
The only way these things will persist is if YOU LET THEM!
"Rest is going to come, when you let it".
Mary Chapin Carpenter
Thursday, July 22, 2010
ALWAYS EXPLORE YOUR DREAMS
Ya know, everyone has their wants, dreams and desires. Mine have been pretty consistent since I was a kid.
Really..........they haven't changed one single bit!!
I never thought I would be living in Texas, that is for sure! As a matter of fact, when I was little I would say," I will live anywhere, ANYWHERE BUT TEXAS."
Why? Because I, for one, was so city oriented. After all, I was going to be an actress in Hollywood, write beautiful screenplays, be a director, and that was it. I was California bound, and that was going to be my only stop. I'd make my life from there!
NOT! To my surprise!
I packed up my entire life in Philadelphia, at the time, and said, "I am going to do this thing". I moved to Los Angeles, and loved it for so many reasons. Evey bit of alternative medicine was available, alternative food, I mean shoot, you could go through a drive through "fast food" joint and get Buckwheat Pancakes, and Tofu bacon.......gimme a break. Back then, I was a Vegan, so that pretty much sold me, aside from the alternative lifestyle there, and the openness of everything. I was in heaven.
I shipped my dog and cat, and we soon found ourselves in West Hollywood, with no grass, only sidewalks, and no real trees or parks to be found, at least close to home, like I had back home, at least not in walking distance.
At the time, the consciousness was more appealing to me than a park, so I decided to stay.
There are many stories to be talked about in the time that I was in LA, what transpired, and how my beautiful dog that I had for almost 9 years had to get "adopted out" because it was an attachment I had to get rid of".
That is a whole blog in and of itself!
To this day, my animals are my choice. They are the most beautiful, beloved souls in my life, and my life, by choice, revolves around them. I say that with great respect for them, for their species, for the intelligence that gets overlooked, and for my devotion to something that I think is way beyond my own comprehension.
I know I love animals, dogs especially, but really all mammals and animals. Without sounding corny, I do feel like I understand their language, and we are ONE! There is something that happens with me, and dogs, that is unexplainable!
It has been there since I was a kid, and only in the last several years, have I gotten it, that I am some kind of conduit for them, to speak for them, and to make choices for them, that they cannot obviously make, to honor their life, and what is supposed to happen for them, as a species.
HYMN, I was headed in the direction of dreams.
I thought when I was younger that to accomplish or achieve my goals as, or to be, a writer, I would have to do A through Z, so I investigated, and there, I packed up and moved to LA to accomplish what I thought I wanted.
To be a writer, you don't have to be in LA.
To be anyone or anything, you just NEED TO BE YOU! in whatever spot you are in, in any part of the world.
Well, when I moved to LA, I found myself so attracted to the healthiness of it all. I took Yoga twice a day everyday. I cooked vegetarian food for the Seeks everyday. I was looking to dive so deep into my soul, my consciousness that I was like a bottom feeder looking for any crumb that dropped.
No matter what I did, took Yoga, ran, biked, swam, cooked healthy, meditated.........no matter what I did..... I still did not have the "background" that I deeply wanted. It sounded so UN-spiritual, so UN-hip.
The fact of the matter was. Gabriela wanted land, and lots of it!!
Quiet time to write!
Write screenplays, write poetry, children's books, and maybe a love letter somewhere in there, whether it be for love, itself, or for a lover.
Just give me conducive ground to write, really, and I am a happy camper.
5 months into living in LA, I realized it was not for me, at the time!
I need more grass, more green, more things that equated grounding.
I need to have animals, and too, to be around water, and to have trees........big bushy trees, not palm trees that look so stark and sterile. Don't get me wrong, I love palm trees, but I need homey, bushy trees, that tell stories, like some big ol' oak tree, or a cherry tree that you know some kid climbed to get a dozen cherries.
After moving from LA, and skipping living in New Mexico, and being here in Austin Texas, I see, and feel the difference, and I want land.
There are so many things that all elements give us. The Ocean brings me to my knees, literally, for so many reasons!
The seasons bring me joy, and allow me to feel different emotions.
Everyone is different!
I love quiet. An area that is conducive to the spirit. Trees, land, water, birds, and animals. Room to run for dogs, cats, and any other animal that wishes to surface upon your land.
To traipse upon a coupla deer while on your daily run, or a snake, or a rabbit, is the most exquisite experience, especially if you have a dog in hand, and you get to acknowledge how they respond to nature, and animals.
It is, unequivocally, the most splendid experience you could ever have!
After looming around Marble Falls, and trying to find some different places of interest, I found myself pulling over in Kingsland, to have a "picnic" overlooking the water, while on our journey to find land.
Who knows or really who cares, if I even make it to Marble Falls Texas. It has been an area of attraction for me for a long, long time, and in investigating, I get to figure out if this is THE place for me and where I want to settle.
I am going to build my next house, and I want it to be in beautiful territory. One that will be conducive for my "reclusive" self, and surrounded by the beautiful outdoors, filled with amazing animals, and any other form of species that tells me to pay attention and to not be so consumed with myself.
Your environement tells you so much about who you are, what you are about, and what is ahead for you.
Take a peak. It's great stuff.
Stay inquisitive.
Explore your dreams.
Who care what everyone has to say about you, and your way............
YOU ARE GOOD TO GO!
FOLLOW YOUR HEART!
FOLLOW Y OUR INTUITION, AND NEVER
NEVER
SECOND GUESS IT!
LOVE YOU LIKE CRAZY........MAD, MAD CRAZY!!!!!
~
Our drive was amazing, uplifting
Really..........they haven't changed one single bit!!
I never thought I would be living in Texas, that is for sure! As a matter of fact, when I was little I would say," I will live anywhere, ANYWHERE BUT TEXAS."
Why? Because I, for one, was so city oriented. After all, I was going to be an actress in Hollywood, write beautiful screenplays, be a director, and that was it. I was California bound, and that was going to be my only stop. I'd make my life from there!
NOT! To my surprise!
I packed up my entire life in Philadelphia, at the time, and said, "I am going to do this thing". I moved to Los Angeles, and loved it for so many reasons. Evey bit of alternative medicine was available, alternative food, I mean shoot, you could go through a drive through "fast food" joint and get Buckwheat Pancakes, and Tofu bacon.......gimme a break. Back then, I was a Vegan, so that pretty much sold me, aside from the alternative lifestyle there, and the openness of everything. I was in heaven.
I shipped my dog and cat, and we soon found ourselves in West Hollywood, with no grass, only sidewalks, and no real trees or parks to be found, at least close to home, like I had back home, at least not in walking distance.
At the time, the consciousness was more appealing to me than a park, so I decided to stay.
There are many stories to be talked about in the time that I was in LA, what transpired, and how my beautiful dog that I had for almost 9 years had to get "adopted out" because it was an attachment I had to get rid of".
That is a whole blog in and of itself!
To this day, my animals are my choice. They are the most beautiful, beloved souls in my life, and my life, by choice, revolves around them. I say that with great respect for them, for their species, for the intelligence that gets overlooked, and for my devotion to something that I think is way beyond my own comprehension.
I know I love animals, dogs especially, but really all mammals and animals. Without sounding corny, I do feel like I understand their language, and we are ONE! There is something that happens with me, and dogs, that is unexplainable!
It has been there since I was a kid, and only in the last several years, have I gotten it, that I am some kind of conduit for them, to speak for them, and to make choices for them, that they cannot obviously make, to honor their life, and what is supposed to happen for them, as a species.
HYMN, I was headed in the direction of dreams.
I thought when I was younger that to accomplish or achieve my goals as, or to be, a writer, I would have to do A through Z, so I investigated, and there, I packed up and moved to LA to accomplish what I thought I wanted.
To be a writer, you don't have to be in LA.
To be anyone or anything, you just NEED TO BE YOU! in whatever spot you are in, in any part of the world.
Well, when I moved to LA, I found myself so attracted to the healthiness of it all. I took Yoga twice a day everyday. I cooked vegetarian food for the Seeks everyday. I was looking to dive so deep into my soul, my consciousness that I was like a bottom feeder looking for any crumb that dropped.
No matter what I did, took Yoga, ran, biked, swam, cooked healthy, meditated.........no matter what I did..... I still did not have the "background" that I deeply wanted. It sounded so UN-spiritual, so UN-hip.
The fact of the matter was. Gabriela wanted land, and lots of it!!
Quiet time to write!
Write screenplays, write poetry, children's books, and maybe a love letter somewhere in there, whether it be for love, itself, or for a lover.
Just give me conducive ground to write, really, and I am a happy camper.
5 months into living in LA, I realized it was not for me, at the time!
I need more grass, more green, more things that equated grounding.
I need to have animals, and too, to be around water, and to have trees........big bushy trees, not palm trees that look so stark and sterile. Don't get me wrong, I love palm trees, but I need homey, bushy trees, that tell stories, like some big ol' oak tree, or a cherry tree that you know some kid climbed to get a dozen cherries.
After moving from LA, and skipping living in New Mexico, and being here in Austin Texas, I see, and feel the difference, and I want land.
There are so many things that all elements give us. The Ocean brings me to my knees, literally, for so many reasons!
The seasons bring me joy, and allow me to feel different emotions.
Everyone is different!
I love quiet. An area that is conducive to the spirit. Trees, land, water, birds, and animals. Room to run for dogs, cats, and any other animal that wishes to surface upon your land.
To traipse upon a coupla deer while on your daily run, or a snake, or a rabbit, is the most exquisite experience, especially if you have a dog in hand, and you get to acknowledge how they respond to nature, and animals.
It is, unequivocally, the most splendid experience you could ever have!
After looming around Marble Falls, and trying to find some different places of interest, I found myself pulling over in Kingsland, to have a "picnic" overlooking the water, while on our journey to find land.
Who knows or really who cares, if I even make it to Marble Falls Texas. It has been an area of attraction for me for a long, long time, and in investigating, I get to figure out if this is THE place for me and where I want to settle.
I am going to build my next house, and I want it to be in beautiful territory. One that will be conducive for my "reclusive" self, and surrounded by the beautiful outdoors, filled with amazing animals, and any other form of species that tells me to pay attention and to not be so consumed with myself.
Your environement tells you so much about who you are, what you are about, and what is ahead for you.
Take a peak. It's great stuff.
Stay inquisitive.
Explore your dreams.
Who care what everyone has to say about you, and your way............
YOU ARE GOOD TO GO!
FOLLOW YOUR HEART!
FOLLOW Y OUR INTUITION, AND NEVER
NEVER
SECOND GUESS IT!
LOVE YOU LIKE CRAZY........MAD, MAD CRAZY!!!!!
~
Our drive was amazing, uplifting
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
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