STAYING TRUE

If staying true to yourself
meant
risking
"it all"
what would
that
"ALL"
BE?

Is it
just
this
or that
or is it
really
the
"ALL".

Is staying
true
trepidation?

You either
risk
or
you
don't.

You can't
jump
and
in
mid
air
want to put
one foot
back
on land.

You either
say
yes
and
free fall
or
you
are
not
yet
ready.

Either one
is OK.

just
naming
it
is
the
free fall.

I'm
on
the
edge.

Love
just
can't
seem
to
hold
me
down.

~

THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT WANT...........

........people that don't realize that they want things from you. They think it is genuine love, and concern, but it isn't. It is a wanting that shows up.
There is no need to want from me.
I am only here to give love..............
not anything else............. I am not here for anything else...........  unless I tell you otherwise.

Please, do not make my genuine love into something that it is not!!!

I am not a flirt, someone that needs to say things for a reaction. I tell it like it is, and if you happen to misinterpret, that is your thing.............

I genuinely am here to spread and share love, not to play a game, or lead you in some stray direction for some self absorbed reason. I'd rather shoot myself, in all honesty!

I get countless comments via email ...........they blow me away.

I am me............Gabriela...................a regular person..............not this "thing", or untouchable........... I am here, just like you..doin' my work.
I am not the "thing" you think I am.
I am regular.
Just like you.

I have done some extensive work and it has been incredible......

but know........... I am still...........and always will be........... a work in progress..........and never will be.........anything less..............

There are those that have very specific opinions about me.........and you should know that I am right there with you...doing my regular work........... hashing out the same things that need work in order for us to move forward........

I am not better, or greater, or anything like that..............

I am simply me.........with the same questions, the same fervor, the same insatiable desire to know what the hell is going on here..........

So please, humbly, do  me this favor........don't categorize me as something special, someone that has something that you don't, because I have what you have............and that is LOVE!

Look within to see what you have that is going to take you to the higher.........

I am always here to support higher consciousness, but not to make any assumption that I am someone or something that will take you to where you need to be.

That is your own trek.

It is all individual.

I am here, just like you, discovering my own individual ride.

I will hold your hand, but I am no means, the teacher.

A friend......... and a supporter..............but nothing greater.

Thank you for the ability to express!

~

I FEEL SO LUCKY THESE DAYS.......

.......and really,  not only these days, but I pan back on my life and go.........WOW............. really! Amongst all of the stuff that gets thrown at me on this journey, I know in my heart that I have to look beyond those mishaps, and see the gems in them. And not only the gems in them, but the gems everywhere I turn, or look, in my life.
I love when I am feeling so acute to my surroundings, my inner realm, what that means for me, what direction it shows me I am going in, aware of all the people in my life, and what they all mean, able to see the finer tuned things that speak to me in ways that unveil bits and pieces of me and why I am here and how I can forge forward, against any and all odds, to do what it is that I need to do here,  no matter how big or small.

Life has recently given me the most beautiful gems, has taken me out of my box of ideas, that I actually thought were good, and conducive, and healthy, and yet, I feel as if the volcano has erupted and I am experiencing life, in a fresh and crisp new way.
For lack of better words, I feel as if a volcano has erupted and the hot lava that trickles down onto the earth is my heart, my passion for life, and my love for love..........and I am able to let the love shine, and grow and cultivate into some amazing relationships.
Using words to describe this, is by far a huge disappointment, just because I haven't really found any words or expression that touches the reality of what it all is for me at this point and time. I hate to feel as if I  have failed, especially with words. To be able to articulate such a grand love, is by far, one of my favorite past times, and not even a past time really, just a passion to spell out what love is, in all of it's facets.

Love is unexplainable to me. God's precious gifts to me are unexplainable. Everyday, it is a joy to wake up to see just what is going to be presented for me. God knows I am open, and honest, and willing to take on good things, not just for me, but for the whole.
I ask to be used as some sort of vehicle for love, for global awareness, for spiritual awakening, to spread how it all means so much, and if we all do some small part, things WILL EVENTUALLY COME TOGETHER.
This year is going to be filled with active ways to get closer to that nirvana for me. To be able to make bold moves to get to where I think change will happen, and will make a difference.

I am attracting beautiful souls, situations that are supporting my beliefs, and that are willing to take risks to get closer to who they are, and what they are about, and fortunately for me, that equals my path, and similar ideas on how to raise a consciousness that will rock this planet........move people, and allow a better understanding of how we can live in a joy, amongst all of the crap, and elevate others, and their way of living, so that all of this doesn't seem like such an arduous trek, about paying bills, or robbing Peter, to pay Paul.

I have thoughts, and big ones, and they have been planted in a huge garden that is just about to blossom like nobodies business.

I feel so lucky these days for  my life, again, and again, and again, for all situations that have brought me closer to who I am, and away from the false, and for God sending me angels, that have stolen my heart, and have allowed me to open up so much more to trusting, and loving, and relating in beautiful ways that I could never possibly articulate.

I am so very grateful for everything that is transpiring in my world.

Thank you heavens above for watching my back.

I continue to be in great, great awe.

I love all of you and thank you for always responding to what seems to be your calling as well, not just mine.

Holding your hand the whole way.

All my love,
Gabriela

EVENING GATHA

Let me respectfully remind you~
Life and death are of supreme
importance.
Time swiftly
passes by
and
opportunity is
lost.
Each of us
should strive
to
awaken...
AWAKEN!
Take heed....
Let us not
SQUANDER
OUR
LIVES!

~

BREAKING OUT OF MY OWN BOX

Faces
Disappear
into the
light.

I sink
deep
into
a
cushion
of
a reality
so real
seemingly
tangible
yet far
so far
away.

The back round
reminiscent of
my past.

I smile
objectively
and praise
growth.
Praise
time
and
the willingness
to change.

I praise the
word
YES!

I praise
my small
mind
that isn't small
anymore.

The mind
that was set
just hours
before

and stuck in
decision
and
opinion.

I'm not the same.

I'm not the same
from 6 o'clock on.

I have people
to thank
who would
never
think
they had
anything to do
with my flight.

I have much thanks
to a myriad
of "ghosts"
in my world
who are
seemingly
insignificant
yet
significant.

I "wrong" myself
all too much
in favor of
what is right
and what is
wrong.

I knock myself
down
24/7
crashing
old ideas
that
no longer
belong.

Compassion finds me
as it knows
how I beckon
it so.

Compassion
brought it's army
with it
tonight.

It showed up
ready to
fight.

My arms
down
with total surprise.

Wadya doin here?
As if there were no room
to fight for more
understanding.

There has been
a
crashing
and Compassion
won a huge
battle
tonight.

Compassion
kicked
my
ass.

Touche'
you crazy
crazy
persistent fool.

I know
you seek me out
because you hear me
in my silent moments
call you
yell out
to you
to swallow me
whole
and to take
anything
from me
that doesn't
belong.
You've done good
compassion,
you are ON IT
and have taken me
for a ride.
Tonight
it was you and I
and a mystery woman.
You bare gifts
that are sometimes
 hard to
take.

I'm receiving
you.
I get it.
Just please
don't stop!
I'm here
for the gift.
Just  please
allow me
to give back
this most
precious
chain
of love
and
allow me
to melt
in your pool
of surrender.
I am quite sure
that this is
the only
place
I have found
total
comfort
in living.

I don't care
where it is
I just ask
to always
have that house
full of this life
that sustains me
and takes me
away from it all
and into your arms
of
love.
the pure love
that I crave
and cherish
most.

Thank you
once again
for giving me
life
outside
of
ideas.

I am
forever
indebted.

~

ARMS WIDE OPEN......HANDS WAY UP...... STRETCHING.......

GOD LIFE IS A PHENOMENON!!!

I am so in love with my life........with all of it's colors.......it's differences.....it's learning curves........ all of the things that are supposed to grab a hold of me, to keep me down........... or make it seem like life is hard......and yes, it can be, but after experimenting, and experimenting........... I'm gettin a good hold of how it all works and I have to be honest.......I am giggling to high heaven........that I haven't been tripped up, at least as much as I had in the past.
I mean, it is pretty darn significant.

I love the fact that everyday, I wake up and wonder what I have learned the night before. It turns me on, for lack of better expression, but that IS what it is............ I'm not lookin' for diamonds, or the greatest trip abroad, or gifts upon gifts.......I'm lookin to see what I have learned....... how I can see the beauty in evolution...........I mean we have been given this tiny span of time, to do with it what we want, and man, I have screwed up big time........ but I love that! I love that I  have fallen hard enough to be able to be passionate enough, to wonder what is beyond the fall...........and to me.........beyond the fall is where it is at.

When you can shed tears because you know the choices you have made were maybe not the right ones, but realize that they were beneficial to your growth and that you have taken gems from them, and have been able to make different choices, to change, and to grow into more of who you are, outside of those ideas is .......GOD...........CRAZY BEAUTIFUL............CRAZY TRUTH.............. and bold...........because you are staying true to who you are inside, outside of what may seem to be, or what people expect of you.

 When I leave my  house for work, I gather my things. My lunch tote........ and all of the things that I will need to sustain me in work and well........... I have this routine, which is good............I like consistency......... (my sister would choke right now).......I feel like I have my life, in the morning, which is so simple, yet rewarding, to say the very least......... so god damn exquisite, and then when I look at the clock, and it is nearing time for me to get dressed and wind down to put on a different hat, there is a sadness that happens, that I have to leave my oasis, and have to come down to regular life, as it is, very.......well.........very........ cerebral, very disturbing, to be honest.........to see the reality of  human nature, and how it fights to feel comfortable, to be able to get along with others, and just to be OK with itself, alone.......... what a wild ride............and understanding that not many people want to explore outside of a bold comment.

My body is electric with a consciousness that is yelling.........screaming...........and too, whispering the amazing Truth's that are happening for me, and revealing a part of me that I honestly have to digest in my  moments of quiet.

I feel as if my arms are wide open, my hands are high in the air, as if I were to be grabbing onto something so tangible............but it clearly, is not.

The mystery behind love is not tangible at all, and if you can get that, and be OK with it, the mystery will take you on a hunt, a bloody search for a Truth that seems insatiable.........yet  you know you will be satisfied in some odd way, that will be "semi" important on your life's journey........maybe, given extra thought, you will know just how important it all really was........and will give credence to the ladder.............

We truly are........ALL..........SEARCHING...............when it really comes down to it......that is what it is......
we all want to know answers...... we want validity........... we want to know that we will be blanketed with a love that will carry us to our death beds...............

This we cannot be sure of.........at least on the outside............what I do know, for  myself, is that, love is always available, ready to change, or not change us........... it is palpable.

We can manuever in this world as we wish.......no need to apologize.

It is what we want it to be.........right? I mean, RIGHT?

MY ARMS ARE WIDE OPEN............
MY HANDS
WAY UP
IN
TOTAL
SURRENDER!

I want to stretch this soul to the extremes.

Thank you for all of your Truths.
I feel indebted!

Gabriela