I'll just wait to write my blog until I change that picture that is so not me anymore. I'll just wait to write because there is just too much to catch up on. Where do I begin? How do I formulate anything really? so much time has gone by and so much has happened and people are wondering, "What happened to Gabriela?"
Gabriela is fine.
Let's start there. I'm OK.
I had a major shift in my work. It was needed. I did not predict the outcome of my new venture, which went sour for several reasons, so here I am, in the midst of the Universe with myself, my desires, and also, my plain wanting to just rest now. Rest in a simple life that will afford me the luxury to write, to express in all of the ways that I do, and let that take a life of it's own on.
It's funny because since my leaving the farm with my business partner, I have had time to sit back and to listen to what everyone thinks I should be doing, and also, have had time to reflect on what I actually want to do, and man, it has been like a ping pong match.
This and this and this is what I am good at but is THIS actually what I want to do? Really? Do I want to start an enterprise at 44? Do I want to write books for a living and just work a simple job where there is no thinking involved? Do I expound on my passion for cooking? What is the true passion and what am I willing to do to get to the core of who I am, what I want to express, and how that will look in my everyday life?
I certainly am not the big frills girl. I have been there and done that. It impresses me like dust on my shelves.
I have no impression to make on anyone. I could care less. I am me.
What I do care about is doing something that will make a difference in some way. I have to share this crazy love that is inside of me or I will bust into a thousand pieces.
I guess there are many ways to do that, but for me, it gets specific, and I know when the opportunity presents itself for me to get out of the way and to just be my little authentic self, opportunities arise where I can help in one way or the other and it infuses me like no other.
I try to stay on my track of beliefs amongst all of the chaos and uncertainty. It isn't easy.
The economy could seem like my worst enemy, but therein lies my ability to test my strengths and willingness to do what I know is right for me, against any kind of odds, to stay true to what I believe to be true and to follow through with what it is that I believe in, not only for my self, but for anyone that might glom onto what I am saying and believe it to ring just as true to their heart as it does mine.
There never seems to be enough positive reinforcement around, especially if you are odd man out, to do, and to accomplish things outside of the norm. I've given in to, "that's OK" mode.
I have been my own cheerleader for my entire life, and actually, it's OK. Sometimes it is a bit daunting, just because no one, ( I don't think), wants to be Superwoman in all of their moments, but for the most part, it keeps me clear, my thoughts concise, and visions that I have, ready for a formula, ready to be put into action.
I feel like that damn starved writer, starved artist that struggles. How old is that? That starving artist! C'mon artists, let's start a new trend already!
We don't have to starve you know. We just need to get creative!!
Anyone wanting to start a bandwagon on the "non starving artist" wagon, email me asap, I kid you not!
Anyway, this was supposed to be a short blog, for starters and now look! See what you've done?
You all made me talk and talk and talk.
( hard thing for me to do).
OK, so I will keep you posted.
Life is happening in a big way. Nothing other than the next person, but then again, if I were to get into the details of my life, you would see that there is much going on all around me, with the people involved and it makes for a much better story........... but that would be for a private room with some exotic popcorn and some sexy Mediterranean sea salt, that's for damn sure!
Good night and sweet dreams.
Gabriela
Friday, July 8, 2011
Thursday, April 14, 2011
LITTLE SNIPPETS
My time is of the essence.
My little snippets mean, let's start crammin in information little by little so at least I can say I am staying aware, and giving you information, little by little, that will keep you abreast on what is happening in my world.
The "little snippets" mean a lot to me, even if it seems small. At least I can can keep you updated on what is new, what is happening, and how it all fits in, into the greater scheme of things.
There is so much that is happening, on many different levels, so I will just spoon feed you for now, and let you know that there are many beautiful things that are about to happen, so stay aware of me,what is happening, and you will find yourself immersed in a new little "life" that will transport you to another time and space.
Not extremely esoteric, mind you. Just consciously aware, awake and revitalizing to the human spirit.
Come along and hold my hand.
Until next time.....
I love you!
Gabriela
My little snippets mean, let's start crammin in information little by little so at least I can say I am staying aware, and giving you information, little by little, that will keep you abreast on what is happening in my world.
The "little snippets" mean a lot to me, even if it seems small. At least I can can keep you updated on what is new, what is happening, and how it all fits in, into the greater scheme of things.
There is so much that is happening, on many different levels, so I will just spoon feed you for now, and let you know that there are many beautiful things that are about to happen, so stay aware of me,what is happening, and you will find yourself immersed in a new little "life" that will transport you to another time and space.
Not extremely esoteric, mind you. Just consciously aware, awake and revitalizing to the human spirit.
Come along and hold my hand.
Until next time.....
I love you!
Gabriela
Friday, April 1, 2011
WHERE TO BEGIN?
Wow, so it has been way too long and so, so much information to relay in one blog.
I feel like I haven't written my blog in forever, and comparatively speaking, I just haven't.
It seems, again, that my days pass me by, the hours slip through the cracks, and I pan back on when my mother was my age now, and remember her saying, "Honey, it passes by so quickly". Before I knew it, you grew from a young girl into a beautiful woman". She always did say how the time will go by quickly, which is why I really try to embrace the importance of my life here, what that all entails, and try to make it exactly the way I would like for it to be.
Life throws us obstacles of all sorts, but I am the kind of person that thinks there is nothing, NOTHING that we cannot overcome, with a little bit of faith and perseverance.
I am a huge believer in taking quiet time, and lots of it, to allow ourselves to get reacquainted with ourselves, again and again and again.
We are ever changing, moment to moment, wanting different things, changing our desires, our plots and plans for what we think our futures are, or even our next moments.
I think a good plan is good, but also, just for me, I think that being able to adopt a kind of fluidity in today's world is wise!
Why hold on to an idea, when there are so many miracles that come our way, so many circumstances that allow us to move in a direction that is generally what we want anyway, just maybe looks a bit different and is not what was mapped out on our canvas.
I always want to leave room for that fluidity.
Actually, it is the thing that works the best for me, and generally most people poo poo it because it is not a mainstream way of thinking.
I have always lived by my own rules. And really, they aren't really rules, just what has felt right, and have taken tons of risks to stay true to the calling that speaks to me so loudly in all of my moments.
Sometimes it even baffles me........
The information that is "handed" to me is perplexing to my mind, yet the feeling of "this is right" always takes precedence and I trust in a higher power that I believe has more knowledge than this tiny little brain. It's a highly "risky" way of thinking to most, but sheer brilliance to me.
I believe in that, and therefore try to balance the "calling" with my regular every day life that calls for routine, responsibility, and a vision of what it sees for not only itself, but for the whole. Humanity. The reason I am here and what I can be doing in simple ways to do, not only my part, but to grab a hold of what comes naturally to me and expound on IT, in ways that will raise the consciousness of our society, the people, no one better or worse, but people like you and me who could use a lesson or two on staying more true to ourselves, whether it be not acting out on someone in a robotic way, and taking responsibility for our actions, or walking down the road and picking up the glass bottle on the ground and pretending that you don't see it. Rather, pick it up, take it to your car and throw it away when you get home, ya know? Simple stuff like that.
I don't know.
If I were to look at life from the whole, I would totally get overwhelmed and depressed at how could someone like me make a difference, but when I look at my moments, my tiny little moments in my day, I ask myself everyday.......how can I make a difference???
Actually it isn't even a question anymore. I just move in that way. I like to make people smile. I like to just be there, with people, and even though observing them is a whole subject in and of itself, I sit back and giggle at the absurdity of personalities, how they operate and how, too, I can have more compassion for people, AND myself, who have flaws, scrapes and scabs that are deep seeded.
I think no matter where we all are, we think we are doing good, or doing the "right" thing. And that, to me, is the beauty of individuality.
We are all on our own individual treks.
I always want to remain innocent, yet wise.
If I am not experiencing that innocence throughout my day, I feel a sort of deadness.
I don't compare myself to anyone.
I have my own "rules of thumb" for a good life.
It may not be the same as Sally or Joe's, but I do have to say that I feel genuinely good when I think of my vision, or my thoughts for people and life, and the whole.
I don't know what I have done, or where I have been in the past that brings me to this sacred place, and really, I don't question it, but I do know that I am here for a reason, and it IS SPECIFIC!
Beyond that? I cannot tell you!
All I have is this precious moment, here on a Friday night.
I grilled a steak. I layed on my deck talking to one of my dogs, rubbing his belly, staring at the stars that are so darn bright tonight........
I giggled.
I thought about the absurdity of it all.......you know, this life, and all of it's charades............ and it faded into the back round.
I closed my eyes and connected to the source that fills me. Call it what you want!
I don't have to name it. Really, I don't!
It feels like a shame at times, for people who ask "How do you get there"?
I DO have a "formula" of sorts, that works for me. That is all I can say.
Everyone will do as they will and how they see fit for their lives.
I will always be here as a conduit, or some kinda cheerleader who will root for you to come "HOME".
Thank you so much for being a part of my life.
I am ever so grateful!
Love,
Gabriela
I feel like I haven't written my blog in forever, and comparatively speaking, I just haven't.
It seems, again, that my days pass me by, the hours slip through the cracks, and I pan back on when my mother was my age now, and remember her saying, "Honey, it passes by so quickly". Before I knew it, you grew from a young girl into a beautiful woman". She always did say how the time will go by quickly, which is why I really try to embrace the importance of my life here, what that all entails, and try to make it exactly the way I would like for it to be.
Life throws us obstacles of all sorts, but I am the kind of person that thinks there is nothing, NOTHING that we cannot overcome, with a little bit of faith and perseverance.
I am a huge believer in taking quiet time, and lots of it, to allow ourselves to get reacquainted with ourselves, again and again and again.
We are ever changing, moment to moment, wanting different things, changing our desires, our plots and plans for what we think our futures are, or even our next moments.
I think a good plan is good, but also, just for me, I think that being able to adopt a kind of fluidity in today's world is wise!
Why hold on to an idea, when there are so many miracles that come our way, so many circumstances that allow us to move in a direction that is generally what we want anyway, just maybe looks a bit different and is not what was mapped out on our canvas.
I always want to leave room for that fluidity.
Actually, it is the thing that works the best for me, and generally most people poo poo it because it is not a mainstream way of thinking.
I have always lived by my own rules. And really, they aren't really rules, just what has felt right, and have taken tons of risks to stay true to the calling that speaks to me so loudly in all of my moments.
Sometimes it even baffles me........
The information that is "handed" to me is perplexing to my mind, yet the feeling of "this is right" always takes precedence and I trust in a higher power that I believe has more knowledge than this tiny little brain. It's a highly "risky" way of thinking to most, but sheer brilliance to me.
I believe in that, and therefore try to balance the "calling" with my regular every day life that calls for routine, responsibility, and a vision of what it sees for not only itself, but for the whole. Humanity. The reason I am here and what I can be doing in simple ways to do, not only my part, but to grab a hold of what comes naturally to me and expound on IT, in ways that will raise the consciousness of our society, the people, no one better or worse, but people like you and me who could use a lesson or two on staying more true to ourselves, whether it be not acting out on someone in a robotic way, and taking responsibility for our actions, or walking down the road and picking up the glass bottle on the ground and pretending that you don't see it. Rather, pick it up, take it to your car and throw it away when you get home, ya know? Simple stuff like that.
I don't know.
If I were to look at life from the whole, I would totally get overwhelmed and depressed at how could someone like me make a difference, but when I look at my moments, my tiny little moments in my day, I ask myself everyday.......how can I make a difference???
Actually it isn't even a question anymore. I just move in that way. I like to make people smile. I like to just be there, with people, and even though observing them is a whole subject in and of itself, I sit back and giggle at the absurdity of personalities, how they operate and how, too, I can have more compassion for people, AND myself, who have flaws, scrapes and scabs that are deep seeded.
I think no matter where we all are, we think we are doing good, or doing the "right" thing. And that, to me, is the beauty of individuality.
We are all on our own individual treks.
I always want to remain innocent, yet wise.
If I am not experiencing that innocence throughout my day, I feel a sort of deadness.
I don't compare myself to anyone.
I have my own "rules of thumb" for a good life.
It may not be the same as Sally or Joe's, but I do have to say that I feel genuinely good when I think of my vision, or my thoughts for people and life, and the whole.
I don't know what I have done, or where I have been in the past that brings me to this sacred place, and really, I don't question it, but I do know that I am here for a reason, and it IS SPECIFIC!
Beyond that? I cannot tell you!
All I have is this precious moment, here on a Friday night.
I grilled a steak. I layed on my deck talking to one of my dogs, rubbing his belly, staring at the stars that are so darn bright tonight........
I giggled.
I thought about the absurdity of it all.......you know, this life, and all of it's charades............ and it faded into the back round.
I closed my eyes and connected to the source that fills me. Call it what you want!
I don't have to name it. Really, I don't!
It feels like a shame at times, for people who ask "How do you get there"?
I DO have a "formula" of sorts, that works for me. That is all I can say.
Everyone will do as they will and how they see fit for their lives.
I will always be here as a conduit, or some kinda cheerleader who will root for you to come "HOME".
Thank you so much for being a part of my life.
I am ever so grateful!
Love,
Gabriela
Sunday, March 27, 2011
I AM HERE....
as a conduit.
Please don't make me anything other.
I smile and give you joy because I can,
and because
it just
IS.
Please don't mold me
into something
that you want
me
to be.
I am merely
a conduit
of love.
Not to sound
esoteric
but to bring
things
to
a
reality.
I bring joy
because
I feel
joy.
I bring happiness
because
I feel
happiness.
It is that simple.
It is nothing
other.
No rhyme or
reason.
Simply
a love
and joy
for life
and for
people.
Being
genuine
is
a
passion.
If that is
my
worst
"fault"
imprison me!
~
Please don't make me anything other.
I smile and give you joy because I can,
and because
it just
IS.
Please don't mold me
into something
that you want
me
to be.
I am merely
a conduit
of love.
Not to sound
esoteric
but to bring
things
to
a
reality.
I bring joy
because
I feel
joy.
I bring happiness
because
I feel
happiness.
It is that simple.
It is nothing
other.
No rhyme or
reason.
Simply
a love
and joy
for life
and for
people.
Being
genuine
is
a
passion.
If that is
my
worst
"fault"
imprison me!
~
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
SIMPLICITY
I am genuinly happy.
I love waking up these days... ecstatic to go to work.
I LOVE what I do.
My days are conducive and peaceful.
When I get ino work classical music awaits me. Hello?
I have a beautiful puppy that awaits me, so sincere and loving.
I make and eat extremely conscious food. I share that with others. They are affected.
I feed and get to spend time with the most amazing animals. There is an unspoken language that is happening that is beyond comprehension.
The cycle of life is before me.
I am in it.
I am consciously deciding to live very specifically, and it does not have to be to anyone else's liking.
It is mine.
Colorful in it's way.
Risky.
Yet True!
There is a higher plan.
No one needs to know,
not even me.
It is happening all on it's own.
I'm just along for the ride.
Thank you for this amazing opportunity to participate in a life that only comes once 'roun!
I bow with great gratitude!
~
I love waking up these days... ecstatic to go to work.
I LOVE what I do.
My days are conducive and peaceful.
When I get ino work classical music awaits me. Hello?
I have a beautiful puppy that awaits me, so sincere and loving.
I make and eat extremely conscious food. I share that with others. They are affected.
I feed and get to spend time with the most amazing animals. There is an unspoken language that is happening that is beyond comprehension.
The cycle of life is before me.
I am in it.
I am consciously deciding to live very specifically, and it does not have to be to anyone else's liking.
It is mine.
Colorful in it's way.
Risky.
Yet True!
There is a higher plan.
No one needs to know,
not even me.
It is happening all on it's own.
I'm just along for the ride.
Thank you for this amazing opportunity to participate in a life that only comes once 'roun!
I bow with great gratitude!
~
Monday, March 14, 2011
THERE IS NO PLACE TO GO, NO PLACE TO BE
If we are immersed in the NOW, in the present moment, there would be no place to go, or no place to be. It would just simply BE!
Our days are so revealing, so to make some kind of blanket statement about our "future" is almost ludicrous!
It doesn't feel good to try to stay in the present moment because it X's out all of the variables, but in all honesty, the present moment brings to light the true reality of what is happening out there, or here, however you want to look at it.
It actually can give you a sort of relief, or reprieve from having to "do and go, and be" in the ways that we think we "should" or "shouldn't".
People get literally freaked out when you say you don't actually HAVE TO, have a plan, or visualize some "place to be".
I say go on ahead! Plan what you think you want. Just don't be attached to it!
Sometimes life hands you a better hand of cards than you were actually dealt.
By all means, look at the hand that you were dealt, but look to see what slips in through the back door.
I say look at all options but don't be stuck on ONE.
Be open to the option that isn't on your "chalkboard".
It generally is the one that will take you where you need to go.
I feel so humbled tonight.
My life is glorious, for lack of some extravagant word.
I am happy to be of service to people, to make some people smile, and to make "nothing" out of what seems to be "something" in my everyday life.
I don't want anything but to be immersed in godliness, in true purity and goodness.
However that shows up, I will follow.
Anything else will be a bore, and I will tire quickly.
Stay awake.
I am open!
I am utterly grateful!
Thank you!
~
Our days are so revealing, so to make some kind of blanket statement about our "future" is almost ludicrous!
It doesn't feel good to try to stay in the present moment because it X's out all of the variables, but in all honesty, the present moment brings to light the true reality of what is happening out there, or here, however you want to look at it.
It actually can give you a sort of relief, or reprieve from having to "do and go, and be" in the ways that we think we "should" or "shouldn't".
People get literally freaked out when you say you don't actually HAVE TO, have a plan, or visualize some "place to be".
I say go on ahead! Plan what you think you want. Just don't be attached to it!
Sometimes life hands you a better hand of cards than you were actually dealt.
By all means, look at the hand that you were dealt, but look to see what slips in through the back door.
I say look at all options but don't be stuck on ONE.
Be open to the option that isn't on your "chalkboard".
It generally is the one that will take you where you need to go.
I feel so humbled tonight.
My life is glorious, for lack of some extravagant word.
I am happy to be of service to people, to make some people smile, and to make "nothing" out of what seems to be "something" in my everyday life.
I don't want anything but to be immersed in godliness, in true purity and goodness.
However that shows up, I will follow.
Anything else will be a bore, and I will tire quickly.
Stay awake.
I am open!
I am utterly grateful!
Thank you!
~
Saturday, March 12, 2011
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