I DONT WANT TO PRETEND

I don't want to be one of those people that pretends that their world is perfect, or under perfect construction, or handled so delicately, that any circumstance that comes will be smoothed over with roses and sugar. ( roses and sugar.... hmmm) that is an interesting one!

Gotta love the spontaneity of expression.

Tonight, I did not pretend! My emotions ran high, and my reality was such that my best friend, my "dog", and I were in a room together, me trying to say good bye, and thank you, and trying to withstand the reality of a love that will leave forever.

My dogs are my life.............my life are .....my dogs!

Some have kids, I have my babies. I never looked at them like they were animals, or dogs. They have just been a connection that has brought me so much happiness, so much incredible humbleness, and so little fear. They inspire me in every way. They give me love like no other. It is so unconditional.

My experience tonight has brought me to my knees, and also to a place of great understanding.

I sit here, in total amazement at the cycle of birth and death.

It will never settle with me, no matter how spiritual the words are...........the cycle of birth and death will never change , so therefor, I will always be in question.

My night tonight will change me forever.

I will miss my best friend, Tesoro, and thank him for a life that would never be the same without him! I will miss you greatly.



I love you.